The only time when I didn't want to look at my face in the mirror was , when I have been cornered , embarrassed or insulted !
The reason was, that was the only time where I rub an idiotic smile on my face even though my heart crumbles !
I hate that stupid smile of mine .
I hate when all my trails to counter them back fails but makes me even more mute!! I just simply didn't understand where to find the key to my locked tongue ?
But When some one close to my heart teases me I just strike back in no time !!! And of course they do the same . It continuous until our cheeks get pain laughing ,
So it shows I was not that dumb after all !
I could answer !
Then why I could not in first case ? Why was that stupid expression ?
This seemed to be a mysterious question !
I kept on seeing more of this people whose pleasure lies in embarrassing people like me !
But now I too am growing older and older and I have finally learned the trick !!
The trick was very easy . It is to analyse the forthcoming situation , know more about the person , study his/her present and past . Identify his/her mistakes !! That's it !!
When I learned this trick I was on fire . I started to strike back . Started to give tight answers and no wonder to say how happy I was .
I became an expert in finding flaws in fellow human beings . Hurting them with words , poking them back 10 times more than they used to do to me , happened in no time .
But it took me a lot of time to realize that , just to wipe out my idiotic smile , I just made a wholesome idiot of my self ! Yes it was true !!
I have been thinking so much about these people who means nothing to me except few exchange of words , that I was left with no solid beautiful memories at all !!
My mind was no more sensitive enough to blossom for spring !! All I had in my brain was them !
The more I spend my time toward anyone negatively the more garbage I was stuffing in !
I also came to know to actually target someone , we need to think so much about them , and need to give a certain exercise , effort and place in our life to them.....that means we are actually treating them as important persons in our life , Which is such a contrary to what they deserve !!!
How cool I was before !!How plain my mind was !
My life was only filled with loved ones and their memories!!
Where are all the people whom I love have gone now ?
In a pledge to counter some people back what have I done to myself ???
I am slowly getting answer for my mysterious question!
I could not give a tough answer to those kind of persons before because , I just did not spare any time even to think anything about them !!! Neither good nor bad !
They just din't exist according to my brain !
How could I talk about anything which was just not in my brain after all !!
Neither I was dumb nor I have forgotten entire language !
I just had no place or thoughts about them !I was too busy with my loved ones !
This is the answer !
I have decided ! I would not let happen worst to me .
My stupid embarrassing smile seems lot more better than a bin brain full of rotten thoughts about whom I dont have to even care ! .
My hopeless expression is way more beautiful than the blobs of revenge attitude !!
I want to say to them ...Yes ,come on , insult me , ...It is you , who have to bare my stupid smile ! I am not going to spare my time thinking how to strike back ! Not any more !!
