Union

Me and you. We were together. 

So close that, every cell in us could talk to each other.

So close as if we took breath for each other.

But I felt nature took its turn.  

I felt  you disappeared. 

I searched with hope I searched with agony.

I searched with pain and I searched with longing. 

Time flew and here I am as a sapling.

Every time the Sun shines and the wind blows, you evoke me and I dream a dancing.

How I wished you watch me grow. 

How I wished you were there to look at my flower blossoms.

How I wished you saw how gorgeous I looked with the fruit blooms.

How I wished you came and felt the strength in my aura. 

How I wished you knew how much I remembered you with each leaf grown, each autumn shed and each spring rose. 

I looked up In the sky as much as I could see.

Through the stars and the galaxies.

No sign of you. Are we worlds apart?

How could you disown me? 

How a wind, a rain, a star and a moon did not call me to you ? 

Is that even possible?

My heart says no. 

Ended a moaning, dried my eyes and closed them. 

I heard a voice. 

I knew it was you. 

You smiled at my innocence and said you were always there.

You said you are the root.. we grew and blossomed together 

You said you are the root .. we grew stronger and shone together. 

You said you are the root.. we grew fruit blooms together. 

You said you are the root ..we shed and sprung together.

You said we were never worlds apart. 

You said we were never a cell apart.

You said we were never a breath a part.

You said we are in the union.

A butterfly pitied me !

When I was watching animal planet ,  I saw a tiger chasing deer .

 I felt pity for the deer . If I was the deer ,I definitely would have been prayed to god to help save me . I wonder if the deer believes in god ?

 If it does ,  how does its god be looking like ? Does the deer god has ' 6 hands ' ? Does it wear a white toga or green turban ? Is it a male or female ? 

What ever it's god might be , but it simply can't be human .

Why would a deer be worshiping a god which is in the shape of its cruel hunter ? 

So it must be definitely deer-ish !

Even though we worship some of our gods in half animal form , we had to join the other half as human and create a story behind.or it is simply impossible for us to accept him in entire animal form !

And now about the tiger ...They said the poor tiger is already weak and hungry because of lack of prey and this deer is its last chance to survive .

So again, if the tiger believes in god , it is then might not be in the deer-ish form as in tiger's perspective , the deer is very vulnerable and helpless .

Would it's god be in human form then? Ofcourse not !  Why would it be even worshiping the form of its mercyless poacher ?

 So if it believes in god it must be its own species . It must be tiger-ish !

Does this mean , every species has a god of its own ? Or does the creator is kind enough to let every species customize the form of his into their own convenience ??

 For example wouldn't I be scared if I got to see the creator and it is actually in the form of a dinosaur ? 

Or  Would I respect him if he appears in an ant form ? Ofcourse not ! 

For me it is pleasent if he was in bright and human angel form !!! Which ofcoure is not a rule !

Do we even know his real form , shape and size then ?

If no one in this planet actually knows the form of the creator , how can anyone be stupid enough to kill each other in the name of god which they think is the creator ? And If the creator is only limited to that particular country or religion and its people , why have not all the other species in the planet only exist and survive in that country alone ?????

The butterfly sitting on my news paper which has pictures of the killing of people in Gaza must be praying " oh butterfly god ,whatever happens , please don't ever make me to reborn into inhumane and stupid human form ever " , it then stood on my shoulder as if it wants to pat my shoulder with pity of being born in a senseless race and flew away !

A stupid smile or a sick mind ?

The only time when I didn't want to look at my face in the mirror was , when I have been cornered , embarrassed or insulted !

 The reason was,  that was the only time where I rub an idiotic smile on my face even though my heart crumbles ! 

I hate that stupid smile of mine .
 I hate when all my trails to counter them back fails but makes me even more mute!! I just simply didn't  understand where to find the key to my locked tongue ?
But When some one close to my heart teases me I just strike back in no time !!! And of course they do the same . It continuous until our cheeks get pain laughing ,
So it shows I was not that dumb after all ! 
I could answer !
Then why I could not in first case ? Why was that stupid expression ?

This seemed to be a mysterious question !
I kept on seeing more of this people whose pleasure lies in embarrassing people like me !
But now I too am growing older and older and I have finally learned the trick !!
The trick was very easy . It is to analyse the forthcoming situation , know more about the person , study his/her present and past . Identify his/her mistakes !! That's it !!
When I learned this trick I was on fire . I started to strike back . Started to give tight answers and  no wonder to say how happy I was . 
I became an expert in finding flaws in fellow human beings . Hurting them with words , poking them back 10 times more than they used to do to me , happened in no time .
But it took me a lot of time to realize that , just to wipe out my idiotic smile , I just made a wholesome idiot of my self !  Yes it was true !!
I have been thinking so much about these people who means nothing to me except few exchange of words ,  that  I was left with no solid beautiful memories at all !!  
My mind was no more sensitive enough to blossom for spring !! All I had in my brain was them !
The more I spend my time toward anyone negatively the more garbage I was stuffing in !

I also came to know to actually target someone , we need to think so much about them , and need to give a certain exercise , effort and  place in our life to them.....that means we are actually treating them as important persons in our life , Which is such a contrary to what they deserve !!! 

How cool I was before !!  
How plain my mind was ! 
My life was only filled with loved ones and their memories!!
Where are all the people whom I love have gone now ?
 In a pledge to counter some people back what have I done to myself ??? 

I am slowly getting answer for my mysterious question!

I could not give a tough answer to those kind of persons before because , I just did not spare any time even to think anything about them !!! Neither good nor bad !  
They just din't exist according to my brain ! 
How could  I talk about anything which was just not in my brain after all !!
 Neither I was dumb nor I have forgotten entire language !
 I just had no place or thoughts about them !I was too busy with my loved ones !
This is the answer !
I have decided  ! I would not let happen worst to me .
 My stupid embarrassing smile seems lot more better than a bin brain full of rotten thoughts about whom I dont have to even care ! .
My hopeless expression is way more beautiful than the blobs of revenge attitude !!
 
I want to say to them ...Yes ,come on , insult me , ...It is you , who have to bare my stupid smile ! I am not going to spare my time thinking how to strike back ! Not any more !! 

Joy of life

I read books sometimes . Books of great spiritual legends . The legends who chose themselves  physically to get extinct in present times .

In all of the books , all of them commonly talked about ' The joy of life ' !

I always wonder , What might be the joy of life to these great people who actually had lived in the forests , barely get wrapped up ,no home to stay and no family to have fun ?

'The joy of life ' is what I have right now , is int it ?

What possibly could be more joyful than to watch a great movie , watching the family to grow and hanging on with friends ?

What could be more joyful than eating tasty dishes , get myself pampered , taking a long break from work or standing on the top of the mountain !

But ,I always get challenged , my views towards joy is always being challenged !

I tell you how .. 

Though I was on the top of the mountain enjoying the sunset , I knew that I should get down at some point of time !

Though my break is full of fun , I knew that my work is getting piled up !

Though the dishes in the restaurant left myself licking the fingers, the bill left me with a heavy heart and empty pocket .

Though friends and family are always by my side cheering , there were always some inescapable lonely moments always haunting .

Though the movie was great , it never helped me in bring my joy back if I missed to watch another great movie later.

So ,is my Pursue towards joy and disappointment if I don't get them or loose them are causing my sorrows ? 

When I was sorrow , why does all the enjoyment I had just disappeared ? Does it not the duty of my joyful moments is to console me when I was disturbed ?

If  my joys last for only couple of days or few hours or sometimes even  just few seconds and pursuit of getting them makes me restless all the time, then can I call them my joy of life ? 

It seems I will never know what is the actual joy of life in real then!

But I can't change my life style either , can I ?

I can't live or even think like the great spiritual people , can I ?

What I can do now is to have balance, I feel.

Balance in my thoughts . 

Balance in dealing with ups and downs .

Balance in my joys and sorrows . 

Balance that can carry sleepy head and empty pockets in style .

Balance that can make lonely moments to explore a new me inside me .

I knew I can't keep balance at every single situation ! 

But knowing that balance helps me to stay steady even in my worst hurricanes is definitely a joy that I would never like to miss !

GOOD TO GET IGNORED !!!!

GOOD TO GET IGNORED !!!!
 

The more I spend time with myself, the less I get involved with others,
 

The less I get involved with others, the more I get unworried with their hard feelings,
 

The more I get  unworried , the less it pains me when I got hurt by others ,knowingly or unknowingly..
 

The less it pains me, the more the world ignores me !
 

The more the world ignores me , the less the world have expectations on me.
 

The less the world have expectations on me, the more I am free.
 

The more I am free , the less I am unhappy,
 

The less I am unhappy, the more I love my self,
 

The more I love myself, the less I think about the world,
 

The less I think about the world, the more I spend time with myself again ....
 

So...I feel its good to get IGNORED !!!

పుష్పం సమర్పయామి

పూజ మొదలుపెట్టాలన్నా,

వ్రతం మొదలుపెట్టాలన్నా, ముందుగా త్వరగా నాలుగు పూలు కోసుకుని తీసుకువస్తాం.ఒక వేళ ఏ పువ్వు ఐనా మాట్లాడగలిగితే ?!

ఆ ఆలోచనే ' పుష్పం సమర్పయామి '.

నను తాకినంతలోనే అత్తరులు విదజిమ్ముతుంది ప్రాణవాయువు .

నా వర్ణాలను చూసి సంబర పడుతుంది వర్ణణాతీత సూర్య కిరణం.

నేను వికసించుట చూసి మురిసిపోతుంది మన తల్లి  భూమి.

వీరిని వీడి పోను , మొక్కను వదిలి రాను అన్నా నీకు నాగోడు పట్టదా?

నన్ను నా వారి నుండి వేరుచేసి నీ పూజ మందిరానికి లాక్కుని వచ్చావెందుకు?

నన్ను భగవంతునికి అర్పించ నిస్చయించావా?

నా జాతి పుట్టిందే భగవంతుని పాదాల చెంత చేరే అద్రుష్ఠం పొందటానికి అని నిర్ణయించేసిన నువ్వు,నీ అద్రుష్ఠాన్ని మాత్రం థనం,సంపదకే ఎందుకు అంకితం చేస్తావు ?

నీ పుట్టుక ఎందుకో ఎందుకు నీకు అఖ్ఖరలేదు?

 నీ శాస్త్రాలు నన్ను దైవానికి అర్పించమన్నది వాస్తవమే,కానీ ' పుష్పం సమర్పయామి ' అన్న వాక్యంకన్నాముందు ' ధ్యానం సమర్పయామి ' అనే వాక్యంకూడా  ఉందని ఎలా మరిచిపోయావు?

నువ్వు పూజ అని అనుకుంటున్న ఈపనిలో,

నీకళ్ళు నిమిషానికి ఒకసారి ఘడియారం వైపు చూస్తూ త్వరగా పూజముగిచమన్నది.

నీ శ్వాస వంటింట్లో వండబడుతున్నపదార్థాల సంగతేంటో తెలుసుకోకుండా రానంది.

నీ చెవులు పక్కంట్లో జరుగుతున్నగొడవను ముందు ఆశక్తిగా వినమంది.

ఇవన్నీ వాటి పనులు అవి చేసుకుంటుంటే ,నువ్వు నీచేతిలో ఉన్న నన్ను  దైవానికి సమర్పంచబోతున్నావా?

 నీలో ఉన్న నీసొంతమైన ఇంద్రియాలలో ఏఒక్క దానైనా ఏ కొద్దిపాటి సమయంలోనైనా భగవంతునిపై లగ్నం చేయలేని నీవు పరాయి వస్తువునైన నన్నుఎలాసమర్పిచగలవు?

నిజానికి ఒక చిత్రకారుడు అందంగా గీసిన రంగుల చిత్రపఠం మీద నా రంగులు కూడా జత చేసి ఆచిత్రానికి మరిత వన్నె తేగలవేమోకాని నన్నుపరమాత్మకు అర్పిచుట నీకు సాథ్యమా.

నీవనుకుంటున్న నీ దేవుడు కేవలం ఈచిత్రపఠంలోనే ఉన్నాడని, నను పుట్టిచిన మొక్కలో,నీనుంచి ననుకాపాడటంలో తన ఒంతు సాయం చేసిన ముల్లులోనూ లేడని ఖచ్ఛితంగా చెప్పగలవా?

నీవు స్వార్ధపూరిత పూజారివైతే నీఊపిరిసైతం నాకు భారం.

నీవు అందరిలో దైవం చూస్తే ఇక నాఅవరం నీకుఉండబోదనేది నిజం.

Anna Hazaare , 'The blue dress '!

When child I read a story called 'the blue dress' . 
The story says how a beautiful blue dress , given as a gift by a teacher , to a very poor pupil who lives in a filthy , dirty slum , changes the little girl's vile neighbourhood .

 

On the poor  little girl's birthday , all she had left to wear was a dirty untidy frock ! Watching the girl feeling frown , her teacher washes the girl's face and gives her a very beautiful looking new blue dress . As soon as the girl wears it , she looked like an angel . She runs home which was in a slum with all the excitement . Her mother sees this girl and can't believe her eyes ! She thoughts a while and cleans entire house so that the premises suits for such a beautiful girl .

Looking at the tidy house and his beautiful daughter her father decides to clean the outside area of his house .

Their neighbours soon feel shame looking at their own houses to the girl's ,starts to clean their houses and premises . 

When the houses are clean , they loved it so much that they all worked together to clean the streets !

So , the slum is no longer filthy and dirty and so does the girl . 

This is the story . 

If an unbiased ,principled man like Anna hazaare , raises his voice , Aravind kegriwal  gets influenced .

 

When an educated ideologist like Aravind kegriwal get influenced ,

a voter is identified as a person with requirement and as a responsible citizen but not like a thing for sale.

 

When a chagrinned city with the responsible voters decides what they wants , they hold the broomstick to clean the  wicked politics .

 

When the politicians get cleaned from being depraved ,

the disesteemed negotiating market which sets up right after every election to buy and sell MLA for forming a government pauses and thinks at least once in its lifetime .