Joy of life

I read books sometimes . Books of great spiritual legends . The legends who chose themselves  physically to get extinct in present times .

In all of the books , all of them commonly talked about ' The joy of life ' !

I always wonder , What might be the joy of life to these great people who actually had lived in the forests , barely get wrapped up ,no home to stay and no family to have fun ?

'The joy of life ' is what I have right now , is int it ?

What possibly could be more joyful than to watch a great movie , watching the family to grow and hanging on with friends ?

What could be more joyful than eating tasty dishes , get myself pampered , taking a long break from work or standing on the top of the mountain !

But ,I always get challenged , my views towards joy is always being challenged !

I tell you how .. 

Though I was on the top of the mountain enjoying the sunset , I knew that I should get down at some point of time !

Though my break is full of fun , I knew that my work is getting piled up !

Though the dishes in the restaurant left myself licking the fingers, the bill left me with a heavy heart and empty pocket .

Though friends and family are always by my side cheering , there were always some inescapable lonely moments always haunting .

Though the movie was great , it never helped me in bring my joy back if I missed to watch another great movie later.

So ,is my Pursue towards joy and disappointment if I don't get them or loose them are causing my sorrows ? 

When I was sorrow , why does all the enjoyment I had just disappeared ? Does it not the duty of my joyful moments is to console me when I was disturbed ?

If  my joys last for only couple of days or few hours or sometimes even  just few seconds and pursuit of getting them makes me restless all the time, then can I call them my joy of life ? 

It seems I will never know what is the actual joy of life in real then!

But I can't change my life style either , can I ?

I can't live or even think like the great spiritual people , can I ?

What I can do now is to have balance, I feel.

Balance in my thoughts . 

Balance in dealing with ups and downs .

Balance in my joys and sorrows . 

Balance that can carry sleepy head and empty pockets in style .

Balance that can make lonely moments to explore a new me inside me .

I knew I can't keep balance at every single situation ! 

But knowing that balance helps me to stay steady even in my worst hurricanes is definitely a joy that I would never like to miss !