Battle between Deities and Demons , My daily routine

In Hindu mythology , as we know we have so many deities !

I often wonder who are they ? 

Do they really look like how we think they are ?

Do they really exists ?

Where do they stay ?

What about demons ( rakshasa) ?

Where do demons live ?

Why do demons and deities fight ?

And why demons always have an eye on the throne of Indra ?

My way of thinking is ,

They do neither have another world , nor have a form !

They all ( both demons and deities) live in me ,waiting to get into actions as soon as I give a call (feel )

For instance ,

If I've decided to kick start something new , something useful to me or any one , I wake up brahma in me ..

My laziness which says ' no , it takes my money , or hard work 'could be my demon, ready for an argue ! 

The zeal and courage that drives me to achieve something  good might be Vishnu ..

My feeling to get frantic , stepping back could be my demon growing negativeness !

The pain which I don't care and keep it aside as , I have something more important to do, might be shiva..

Leaving it in the middle just because I have not been given the credit or advantage could be my demon grinding its teeth !

The obstacles and hurdles I pass attaining the goal might be ganapati ,

Strength and energy to go forward for it could be shakthi ,

Attaining the goal without leaving behind the principles could be Rama ,

Respecting the resources and using them with care might be Lakshmi !

Smart thinking that could help reaching the goal could be Krishna!

 Frustration , depression , cunning , selfishness could be my rest of the demons ready to fight !

So , in that way ,every single day , except things that I have to do to keep myself living ,like eating , sleeping etc .. Any other move I make , there is a battle !

A battle between my deities and my demons ! 

A battle in which I am the solo spectator and solo witness !

A battle in which my mind and heart have opposite sides to cheer !

A battle in which I can choose any side as winner !

A battle in which only I can explain myself why it happened and how I chose the winner !

 I honestly must agree , that I normally chose my demons to win and occasionally give  my deities the chance !

But I do this much , I will take caution of my demons not to attain the throne of my senses , as if it does , I knew , I would be left with neither any deity nor any power to choose !