Union

Me and you. We were together. 

So close that, every cell in us could talk to each other.

So close as if we took breath for each other.

But I felt nature took its turn.  

I felt  you disappeared. 

I searched with hope I searched with agony.

I searched with pain and I searched with longing. 

Time flew and here I am as a sapling.

Every time the Sun shines and the wind blows, you evoke me and I dream a dancing.

How I wished you watch me grow. 

How I wished you were there to look at my flower blossoms.

How I wished you saw how gorgeous I looked with the fruit blooms.

How I wished you came and felt the strength in my aura. 

How I wished you knew how much I remembered you with each leaf grown, each autumn shed and each spring rose. 

I looked up In the sky as much as I could see.

Through the stars and the galaxies.

No sign of you. Are we worlds apart?

How could you disown me? 

How a wind, a rain, a star and a moon did not call me to you ? 

Is that even possible?

My heart says no. 

Ended a moaning, dried my eyes and closed them. 

I heard a voice. 

I knew it was you. 

You smiled at my innocence and said you were always there.

You said you are the root.. we grew and blossomed together 

You said you are the root .. we grew stronger and shone together. 

You said you are the root.. we grew fruit blooms together. 

You said you are the root ..we shed and sprung together.

You said we were never worlds apart. 

You said we were never a cell apart.

You said we were never a breath a part.

You said we are in the union.

A butterfly pitied me !

When I was watching animal planet ,  I saw a tiger chasing deer .

 I felt pity for the deer . If I was the deer ,I definitely would have been prayed to god to help save me . I wonder if the deer believes in god ?

 If it does ,  how does its god be looking like ? Does the deer god has ' 6 hands ' ? Does it wear a white toga or green turban ? Is it a male or female ? 

What ever it's god might be , but it simply can't be human .

Why would a deer be worshiping a god which is in the shape of its cruel hunter ? 

So it must be definitely deer-ish !

Even though we worship some of our gods in half animal form , we had to join the other half as human and create a story behind.or it is simply impossible for us to accept him in entire animal form !

And now about the tiger ...They said the poor tiger is already weak and hungry because of lack of prey and this deer is its last chance to survive .

So again, if the tiger believes in god , it is then might not be in the deer-ish form as in tiger's perspective , the deer is very vulnerable and helpless .

Would it's god be in human form then? Ofcourse not !  Why would it be even worshiping the form of its mercyless poacher ?

 So if it believes in god it must be its own species . It must be tiger-ish !

Does this mean , every species has a god of its own ? Or does the creator is kind enough to let every species customize the form of his into their own convenience ??

 For example wouldn't I be scared if I got to see the creator and it is actually in the form of a dinosaur ? 

Or  Would I respect him if he appears in an ant form ? Ofcourse not ! 

For me it is pleasent if he was in bright and human angel form !!! Which ofcoure is not a rule !

Do we even know his real form , shape and size then ?

If no one in this planet actually knows the form of the creator , how can anyone be stupid enough to kill each other in the name of god which they think is the creator ? And If the creator is only limited to that particular country or religion and its people , why have not all the other species in the planet only exist and survive in that country alone ?????

The butterfly sitting on my news paper which has pictures of the killing of people in Gaza must be praying " oh butterfly god ,whatever happens , please don't ever make me to reborn into inhumane and stupid human form ever " , it then stood on my shoulder as if it wants to pat my shoulder with pity of being born in a senseless race and flew away !

A stupid smile or a sick mind ?

The only time when I didn't want to look at my face in the mirror was , when I have been cornered , embarrassed or insulted !

 The reason was,  that was the only time where I rub an idiotic smile on my face even though my heart crumbles ! 

I hate that stupid smile of mine .
 I hate when all my trails to counter them back fails but makes me even more mute!! I just simply didn't  understand where to find the key to my locked tongue ?
But When some one close to my heart teases me I just strike back in no time !!! And of course they do the same . It continuous until our cheeks get pain laughing ,
So it shows I was not that dumb after all ! 
I could answer !
Then why I could not in first case ? Why was that stupid expression ?

This seemed to be a mysterious question !
I kept on seeing more of this people whose pleasure lies in embarrassing people like me !
But now I too am growing older and older and I have finally learned the trick !!
The trick was very easy . It is to analyse the forthcoming situation , know more about the person , study his/her present and past . Identify his/her mistakes !! That's it !!
When I learned this trick I was on fire . I started to strike back . Started to give tight answers and  no wonder to say how happy I was . 
I became an expert in finding flaws in fellow human beings . Hurting them with words , poking them back 10 times more than they used to do to me , happened in no time .
But it took me a lot of time to realize that , just to wipe out my idiotic smile , I just made a wholesome idiot of my self !  Yes it was true !!
I have been thinking so much about these people who means nothing to me except few exchange of words ,  that  I was left with no solid beautiful memories at all !!  
My mind was no more sensitive enough to blossom for spring !! All I had in my brain was them !
The more I spend my time toward anyone negatively the more garbage I was stuffing in !

I also came to know to actually target someone , we need to think so much about them , and need to give a certain exercise , effort and  place in our life to them.....that means we are actually treating them as important persons in our life , Which is such a contrary to what they deserve !!! 

How cool I was before !!  
How plain my mind was ! 
My life was only filled with loved ones and their memories!!
Where are all the people whom I love have gone now ?
 In a pledge to counter some people back what have I done to myself ??? 

I am slowly getting answer for my mysterious question!

I could not give a tough answer to those kind of persons before because , I just did not spare any time even to think anything about them !!! Neither good nor bad !  
They just din't exist according to my brain ! 
How could  I talk about anything which was just not in my brain after all !!
 Neither I was dumb nor I have forgotten entire language !
 I just had no place or thoughts about them !I was too busy with my loved ones !
This is the answer !
I have decided  ! I would not let happen worst to me .
 My stupid embarrassing smile seems lot more better than a bin brain full of rotten thoughts about whom I dont have to even care ! .
My hopeless expression is way more beautiful than the blobs of revenge attitude !!
 
I want to say to them ...Yes ,come on , insult me , ...It is you , who have to bare my stupid smile ! I am not going to spare my time thinking how to strike back ! Not any more !! 

Joy of life

I read books sometimes . Books of great spiritual legends . The legends who chose themselves  physically to get extinct in present times .

In all of the books , all of them commonly talked about ' The joy of life ' !

I always wonder , What might be the joy of life to these great people who actually had lived in the forests , barely get wrapped up ,no home to stay and no family to have fun ?

'The joy of life ' is what I have right now , is int it ?

What possibly could be more joyful than to watch a great movie , watching the family to grow and hanging on with friends ?

What could be more joyful than eating tasty dishes , get myself pampered , taking a long break from work or standing on the top of the mountain !

But ,I always get challenged , my views towards joy is always being challenged !

I tell you how .. 

Though I was on the top of the mountain enjoying the sunset , I knew that I should get down at some point of time !

Though my break is full of fun , I knew that my work is getting piled up !

Though the dishes in the restaurant left myself licking the fingers, the bill left me with a heavy heart and empty pocket .

Though friends and family are always by my side cheering , there were always some inescapable lonely moments always haunting .

Though the movie was great , it never helped me in bring my joy back if I missed to watch another great movie later.

So ,is my Pursue towards joy and disappointment if I don't get them or loose them are causing my sorrows ? 

When I was sorrow , why does all the enjoyment I had just disappeared ? Does it not the duty of my joyful moments is to console me when I was disturbed ?

If  my joys last for only couple of days or few hours or sometimes even  just few seconds and pursuit of getting them makes me restless all the time, then can I call them my joy of life ? 

It seems I will never know what is the actual joy of life in real then!

But I can't change my life style either , can I ?

I can't live or even think like the great spiritual people , can I ?

What I can do now is to have balance, I feel.

Balance in my thoughts . 

Balance in dealing with ups and downs .

Balance in my joys and sorrows . 

Balance that can carry sleepy head and empty pockets in style .

Balance that can make lonely moments to explore a new me inside me .

I knew I can't keep balance at every single situation ! 

But knowing that balance helps me to stay steady even in my worst hurricanes is definitely a joy that I would never like to miss !

GOOD TO GET IGNORED !!!!

GOOD TO GET IGNORED !!!!
 

The more I spend time with myself, the less I get involved with others,
 

The less I get involved with others, the more I get unworried with their hard feelings,
 

The more I get  unworried , the less it pains me when I got hurt by others ,knowingly or unknowingly..
 

The less it pains me, the more the world ignores me !
 

The more the world ignores me , the less the world have expectations on me.
 

The less the world have expectations on me, the more I am free.
 

The more I am free , the less I am unhappy,
 

The less I am unhappy, the more I love my self,
 

The more I love myself, the less I think about the world,
 

The less I think about the world, the more I spend time with myself again ....
 

So...I feel its good to get IGNORED !!!

పుష్పం సమర్పయామి

పూజ మొదలుపెట్టాలన్నా,

వ్రతం మొదలుపెట్టాలన్నా, ముందుగా త్వరగా నాలుగు పూలు కోసుకుని తీసుకువస్తాం.ఒక వేళ ఏ పువ్వు ఐనా మాట్లాడగలిగితే ?!

ఆ ఆలోచనే ' పుష్పం సమర్పయామి '.

నను తాకినంతలోనే అత్తరులు విదజిమ్ముతుంది ప్రాణవాయువు .

నా వర్ణాలను చూసి సంబర పడుతుంది వర్ణణాతీత సూర్య కిరణం.

నేను వికసించుట చూసి మురిసిపోతుంది మన తల్లి  భూమి.

వీరిని వీడి పోను , మొక్కను వదిలి రాను అన్నా నీకు నాగోడు పట్టదా?

నన్ను నా వారి నుండి వేరుచేసి నీ పూజ మందిరానికి లాక్కుని వచ్చావెందుకు?

నన్ను భగవంతునికి అర్పించ నిస్చయించావా?

నా జాతి పుట్టిందే భగవంతుని పాదాల చెంత చేరే అద్రుష్ఠం పొందటానికి అని నిర్ణయించేసిన నువ్వు,నీ అద్రుష్ఠాన్ని మాత్రం థనం,సంపదకే ఎందుకు అంకితం చేస్తావు ?

నీ పుట్టుక ఎందుకో ఎందుకు నీకు అఖ్ఖరలేదు?

 నీ శాస్త్రాలు నన్ను దైవానికి అర్పించమన్నది వాస్తవమే,కానీ ' పుష్పం సమర్పయామి ' అన్న వాక్యంకన్నాముందు ' ధ్యానం సమర్పయామి ' అనే వాక్యంకూడా  ఉందని ఎలా మరిచిపోయావు?

నువ్వు పూజ అని అనుకుంటున్న ఈపనిలో,

నీకళ్ళు నిమిషానికి ఒకసారి ఘడియారం వైపు చూస్తూ త్వరగా పూజముగిచమన్నది.

నీ శ్వాస వంటింట్లో వండబడుతున్నపదార్థాల సంగతేంటో తెలుసుకోకుండా రానంది.

నీ చెవులు పక్కంట్లో జరుగుతున్నగొడవను ముందు ఆశక్తిగా వినమంది.

ఇవన్నీ వాటి పనులు అవి చేసుకుంటుంటే ,నువ్వు నీచేతిలో ఉన్న నన్ను  దైవానికి సమర్పంచబోతున్నావా?

 నీలో ఉన్న నీసొంతమైన ఇంద్రియాలలో ఏఒక్క దానైనా ఏ కొద్దిపాటి సమయంలోనైనా భగవంతునిపై లగ్నం చేయలేని నీవు పరాయి వస్తువునైన నన్నుఎలాసమర్పిచగలవు?

నిజానికి ఒక చిత్రకారుడు అందంగా గీసిన రంగుల చిత్రపఠం మీద నా రంగులు కూడా జత చేసి ఆచిత్రానికి మరిత వన్నె తేగలవేమోకాని నన్నుపరమాత్మకు అర్పిచుట నీకు సాథ్యమా.

నీవనుకుంటున్న నీ దేవుడు కేవలం ఈచిత్రపఠంలోనే ఉన్నాడని, నను పుట్టిచిన మొక్కలో,నీనుంచి ననుకాపాడటంలో తన ఒంతు సాయం చేసిన ముల్లులోనూ లేడని ఖచ్ఛితంగా చెప్పగలవా?

నీవు స్వార్ధపూరిత పూజారివైతే నీఊపిరిసైతం నాకు భారం.

నీవు అందరిలో దైవం చూస్తే ఇక నాఅవరం నీకుఉండబోదనేది నిజం.

Anna Hazaare , 'The blue dress '!

When child I read a story called 'the blue dress' . 
The story says how a beautiful blue dress , given as a gift by a teacher , to a very poor pupil who lives in a filthy , dirty slum , changes the little girl's vile neighbourhood .

 

On the poor  little girl's birthday , all she had left to wear was a dirty untidy frock ! Watching the girl feeling frown , her teacher washes the girl's face and gives her a very beautiful looking new blue dress . As soon as the girl wears it , she looked like an angel . She runs home which was in a slum with all the excitement . Her mother sees this girl and can't believe her eyes ! She thoughts a while and cleans entire house so that the premises suits for such a beautiful girl .

Looking at the tidy house and his beautiful daughter her father decides to clean the outside area of his house .

Their neighbours soon feel shame looking at their own houses to the girl's ,starts to clean their houses and premises . 

When the houses are clean , they loved it so much that they all worked together to clean the streets !

So , the slum is no longer filthy and dirty and so does the girl . 

This is the story . 

If an unbiased ,principled man like Anna hazaare , raises his voice , Aravind kegriwal  gets influenced .

 

When an educated ideologist like Aravind kegriwal get influenced ,

a voter is identified as a person with requirement and as a responsible citizen but not like a thing for sale.

 

When a chagrinned city with the responsible voters decides what they wants , they hold the broomstick to clean the  wicked politics .

 

When the politicians get cleaned from being depraved ,

the disesteemed negotiating market which sets up right after every election to buy and sell MLA for forming a government pauses and thinks at least once in its lifetime .

దేవతలు ఎక్కడుంటారు ?

హిందూ మతసాంప్రదాయంలో మనంపూజించే ముక్కోటిదేవతలు ఎక్కడ ఉంటారు?
 ఏలోకంలొ ఉన్నారు?
ఎలా ఉంటారు?
మనము,మన పూర్వీకులు ,నిత్యం పూజిస్తున్న ఆకారంలోనే ఉంటారా?

వీటికి సమాథాననాలు, నా ఆలోచనల పరిథిలో....

దేవతలు అసలంటూ ఉంటే,ఎక్కడో కాదు, మనలోనే ,మన అలోచనలలో,ఆచరణలలో ఉంటారు.వారు ఆకార రహితులు.
మనలోమెదిలే ఒక్కొక్క స్పందన ఒక్కొక్క దేవతకి గుర్తు. ఉదాహరణకు, మనలో పుట్టే ప్రతీ మంచి భావన ,బ్రహ్మ.
ఎదుగుదలకు చేసే ప్రయత్నం విష్ఠ్నువు.
వైరాగ్య భావనే శివుడు.
మంచి పనికి పూనుకునే సంకల్పమే విఘ్నపతి.
ఉన్న వనరులను గౌరవిస్తూ ఉపయోగించడమే లక్ష్మి.
ఉన్నత తెలివి తేటలే కృష్ట్నుడు.
సత్ప్రవర్తనే రాముడు.
ఆవేశమే ఉగ్రనరసింహుడు.
శక్తీయే దుర్గ.
ఇంద్రియ వాంఛయే ఇంద్రుడు.
ఇలా ప్రతీ దేవతకూ , మనలో కలిగే ప్రతీ భావనకూ,స్పందనకూ,మన క్రియకూ ,ఆలోచనలకూ సంభంధం ఉంది. ఇవన్నీ కలిపి మనం.మనమే దైవం.
మనం చేయ వలసినది, సత్భావనలనూ సత్ప్రవర్తననూ, ప్రోత్సహీంచి అభివృధి చేయటం.
అలా చేస్తే రోజూ ప్రతీ దేవతకీ పంచామృతాలతో అభిషేకంచి నట్లే.

పురాణ కథలలో, రాక్షసులు ముందుగా వశం చేసుకోవాలనుకునేది ఇంద్రియ స్ధానాధ్యక్షుడైన ఇంద్రుని స్ధానమే .చెడు ఆలోచనలు ఇంద్రియాలను లోబరచుకో గలిగితే , మనసనే ప్రపంచాన్ని ఎలా అల్లకల్లోలం చేయగలదో అన్నవిషయానికి మూలసారాంసం లా ఉంటాయు ఆ కథల్లో.

ఎలా ఐతే ఇంద్రదేవుడు బ్రహ్మ,విష్ఠ్నువు,శివుడు మొదలగు వారిని ప్రార్ధించి రాక్షసులను అంతం చేయమని మనవి చేసుకుంటాడో , అలానే  మనం కూడా  మన మనసులో పెరిగే దురాశా,కృూరపు, చెడు మరియు దర్మార్గపు ఆలోచనలు లాంటి వాటికి లొంగక, మన అంతరంగాలలో దాగి ఉన్న విచక్షణ, తెలివి, సత్సంకల్పం, శక్తి, మొదలగు వాటిని ప్రేరేపించి ,వినాశన కారి ఐన అలోచనలను అరికట్ట గలిగితే మన మనస్సులో లోకకల్యాణం జరిగినట్లే.

కాంతి శిల్ప.

Battle between Deities and Demons , My daily routine

In Hindu mythology , as we know we have so many deities !

I often wonder who are they ? 

Do they really look like how we think they are ?

Do they really exists ?

Where do they stay ?

What about demons ( rakshasa) ?

Where do demons live ?

Why do demons and deities fight ?

And why demons always have an eye on the throne of Indra ?

My way of thinking is ,

They do neither have another world , nor have a form !

They all ( both demons and deities) live in me ,waiting to get into actions as soon as I give a call (feel )

For instance ,

If I've decided to kick start something new , something useful to me or any one , I wake up brahma in me ..

My laziness which says ' no , it takes my money , or hard work 'could be my demon, ready for an argue ! 

The zeal and courage that drives me to achieve something  good might be Vishnu ..

My feeling to get frantic , stepping back could be my demon growing negativeness !

The pain which I don't care and keep it aside as , I have something more important to do, might be shiva..

Leaving it in the middle just because I have not been given the credit or advantage could be my demon grinding its teeth !

The obstacles and hurdles I pass attaining the goal might be ganapati ,

Strength and energy to go forward for it could be shakthi ,

Attaining the goal without leaving behind the principles could be Rama ,

Respecting the resources and using them with care might be Lakshmi !

Smart thinking that could help reaching the goal could be Krishna!

 Frustration , depression , cunning , selfishness could be my rest of the demons ready to fight !

So , in that way ,every single day , except things that I have to do to keep myself living ,like eating , sleeping etc .. Any other move I make , there is a battle !

A battle between my deities and my demons ! 

A battle in which I am the solo spectator and solo witness !

A battle in which my mind and heart have opposite sides to cheer !

A battle in which I can choose any side as winner !

A battle in which only I can explain myself why it happened and how I chose the winner !

 I honestly must agree , that I normally chose my demons to win and occasionally give  my deities the chance !

But I do this much , I will take caution of my demons not to attain the throne of my senses , as if it does , I knew , I would be left with neither any deity nor any power to choose !

No feelings or emotions lasts forever !

20 mins I meditate every day 20 mins from 10 years
20 mins of calm and peace 20 mins when I shut my eyes and ears .
20 mins when I see creator in every object and being ,
20 mins I put my thoughts into bed when I realise, in a long run my feelings and emotions are mortal and have no meaning !
All that lasts is creator in you and me I realise ,
I so much liked this fact and made it finalise !

I finish my 20 mins and come out to my living ,
Hugged by beast of emotions and kissed by ghost of feelings!
Feelings of jealous , feelings of pride , feelings of selfishness and ego asks me to have a ride !
Emotion shows me how world laugh when I am sad asks me to make a plan and give the world a tit for tat !

There I go out of my home holding my feelings and carrying my emotions to trick back the world when it tricks me !

When I am walking , marching like a troop , there comes my 20 mins to rescue and advise me not to fall in this loop !

I came back to my self and came back to my home . Thanked the 20 minutes to stop this entire menace !

The Universe in me !

Asked the Nature , why you give lives and why you take them away? 
Nature answered me 'My boss gave me the freedom to do so !' !

Asked the fire , why do you show the path , why you get provoked to be an ambush and swoop the woods ?
Fire answered me 'My boss gave me the freedom to do so !'

Asked the earth , why you  let the plants blossom from your womb , and why you have to be a  giant crack and swallow everything resting on you into your mouth?
 Earth answers me 'My boss gave me the freedom to do so !'

Asked the water , why are you so pure , and be the main element to make living , and why you become a monster wave and gulp the innocents? 
Water answers me 'My boss gave me the freedom to do so !'

When I insisted that I am committed to know the answers,they all took me to 'Eyes', A pair of eyes ! Ordinary but big eyes ! 

I asked 'the eyes' who are you?

It replied , "I am the one who you are looking for !"

I asked , are you the boss ? It replied " if you agree !"

I was surprised , happy , scared and filled with entire emotions of the world !

I tried controlling my emotions and asked why the five elements are pleasant sometimes and sometimes be cruel?
 
The Eyes replied "they are just like you,

Like the nature , you might give birth ,but when you sit ,stand and sneeze you take lives which might be invisible to you but means a lot to themselves  !

Like the fire , you burn like a candle for your family but sometimes burn with enmity and revenge for a person who might be also a member in his own family  !

Like water , you be so cool sometimes but hurt many into tears !

Like earth you be so patience sometimes but burst  for unbearable reasons !

Like you ,them and any other element , I just create and give them the freedom to act !

Listening to this , I breath fast.I can't wait to see what's in those eyes ?

Would there me moon in one eye and sun in another ?

Would there be the all the planets in one eye and the stars in another ?

Would there be  100's of galaxies in one eye and black holes in another ?

How those eyes manage all this ?

 To know the truth I jumped near and looked into those eyes !!!

Surprised to see there is nothing but my reflection in both the eyes !

I asked ,"there is nothing in your eyes except me !"

The eyes answered ,"yes as my job is to just watch you."

I got annoyed, and unsatisfied  for the answer , asked , "if you keep watching me all the time who watches the universe ?"

 

The eyes replied , " well I am watching you in this universe and the universe in you " !!!

 

And I opened my eyes when the clock stuck at 7 and went to make breakfast !

నేను మా బాబు కోసం వ్రాసిన మోదటి లాలి పాట.

నేను మా బాబు కోసం వ్రాసిన మోదటి లాలి పాట.


చిన్ని చిన్ని కృష్ట్నయ్యా, నువ్వే మా కన్నయ్యా,
నీలీలలు చాలయ్యా,పాలు త్రాగ రావయ్యా.

చిన్ని చిన్ని కృష్ట్నయ్యా, నువ్వే మా కన్నయ్యా.

కొప్పు మీద నెమలి కన్ను లేదు గాని చిన్ని నాన్నకు,
కొప్పు మీద నెమలి కన్ను లేదు గాని చిన్ని నాన్నకు,
పురి విప్పిన మనసంది, మనసులోన దైవముంది.

చిన్ని చిన్ని కృష్ట్నయ్యా, నువ్వే మా కన్నయ్యా,
చిన్ని చిన్ని కృష్ట్నయ్యా, నువ్వే మా కన్నయ్యా.

అరచేతిలొ వెదురు వేణువు లేదుగాని బుజ్జి నాన్నకు,
అరచేతిలొ వెదురు వేణువు లేదుగాని బుజ్జి నాన్నకు,
ప్రతి పలుకూ చిలక పలుకులే, ప్రతి మాటా తేనె ఝల్లులే.

చిన్ని చిన్ని కృష్ట్నయ్యా, నువ్వే మా కన్నయ్యా,
చిన్ని చిన్ని కృష్ట్నయ్యా, నువ్వే మా కన్నయ్యా.

బంగారు మొలతాడు లేదుగాని చిట్టి నాన్నకు,
బంగారు మొలతాడు లేదుగాని చిట్టి నాన్నకు,
వళ్శంతా పసిడి వెన్నెలే, చంద్రబింబమంటి మోములే.

చిన్ని చిన్ని కృష్ట్నయ్యా, నువ్వే మా కన్నయ్యా,
నీలీలలు చాలయ్యా,పాలు త్రాగ రావయ్యా.

చిన్ని చిన్ని కృష్ట్నయ్యా, నువ్వే మా కన్నయ్యా.

My first lullaby ,I have written for my son years ago !

Oh lord Krishna ,look at my own sweet little Krishna !

He might not possess a peacock feather on his hair like you , 

but happy is his heart , bliss is his soul  like a dancing peacock in the rain , noticed haven't you ?

Oh lord Krishna ,look at my own sweet little Krishna !

He cannot blow the flute and charm the girls like you , but every little baby word he Speaks, every little sound he makes is a feast for my ears , you know this don't you?

Oh lord Krishna , look at my own sweet little Krishna !

I certainly cannot afford to decorate my baby like Yashoda did to you , but doesn't his body shines in the sun and glows in the moon like a mountain dew ?

Oh lord Krishna , look at my own sweet little Krishna !

I know you won't stop showering smiles on me , though I compared a tiny human being with the maker of this universe like you ! 

I dared this as I know ,every being has a bit of you , and serving them is serving you !

My Bottle 'God' sambar !

Today I wanted to cook bottle gourd sambar which was my mom's recipe ! Went to an Indian market ,

Saw a big green fresh bottle gourd which was perfect for my sambar .

But a shinny Indian scarf drew my attention . Since I had little money left  that day , I got compromised on the bottle gourd and bought the scarf ! I substituted my mom's  Bottle gourd sambar recipe with cucumber insted  !!! 

This whole episode made me to relate like this ....

The farmer who have put the seed , did the  hardwork, spend time to grow this vegetable and calls it as bottle gourd ...resembled for me the very first person , who discovered that there should be some superpower in this universe who is driving the entire matter to exist and he named that superpower  as 'God' !

Then I compared the super market owner who got this bottle gourd from the farmer and preserved it ,cared for it, in a suitable environment ...to the messengers  of god , who not only trusted and believed in god but also tried to pass this precious treasure unaltered  to the next generations !

Then came my mom who bought the bottle gourd and since she knew her kids are fussy and messy to eat the bottle gourd if she cooks as a whole , she cut it into 3 pieces and made curry , sambar and pickle  just for us to get all the goodness of the bottle gourd ...resembled for me the person who might have figured out the incapability of coming generations who won't be able to carry the true strength of god as a whole ,so he might have created a human form to the God , made an idol, idolised him,personified him and personalised him ,!

And then it's  me in my childhood who not only chose to just eat the bottle gourd sambar , but also deliberately announced that other dishes as bad and very bad , unable to realise even the other dishes have same vegetable , but in a different form...reminds me of the people who fight and debate that ' only their own god is great '!

Then comes the adult but dumb me again , who sometimes spoil my mom's sambar recipe ,some times over cook the bottle gourd , and sometimes even dare to substitute the bottle gourd with cucumber  and yet call it 'bottle gourd sambar' and serve the family ....reminds me of many of us  who talks about god ,discuss about god ,give crowns and thrones to god ,pray to god in misery and also finally forget god easily for pleasure and money !